A letter to my nanay

I have been planning to write this letter for so long.But once I am in front of the screen,I can only produce a blank stare.

Of course I know Tatay would understand that there is a different sense of bonding between a mother and a daughter.Far different from the ones that we have for a tatay.But,of course,I love my tatay...more than anything in this world.But let me just talk to you now...because I thought my longing for you has ended,but I miss you,still...

It started earlier,I had a different feeling of sadness.I saw a family,and while walking,I saw a daughter crying,and to my interpretation,it was her mom lying at that bed.Her mom was frail,old,and had an edematous face.There were two daughters walking after that bed.To my knowledge,this bed would be transferred to a different room.And I saw the daughters crying...And then that same memory came again...

I don't know,it was already 8 years.But it has became fresh the moment that I saw this family.What happened?Maybe because I saw that same edematous face that you had before,or that same scenario when you had to be transferred to ICU from a regular room.Or maybe because she was also accompanied by her daughters.I don't know...I really don't know...


Sometimes,I had to ask myself.How have you been doing there?Do you still know us?Or is it the same scene from the movie "The Lovely Bones" that when you die,you don't want to come to earth anymore.Things like that...Things of some sort...

Sometimes,I still feel you.All the more when I am sad...Yes,I still feel sad Nay,I am normal,.,I still cry,,,And I still cling to that one person that I want to see when I feel sad,your face...But no,I cannot have that one warm hug from a nanay anymore.

8 years,it was so fast...That time that I thought I was never that strong,but I had to be.

I am still thinking why you did not allow me to see you die,when a day before your passing,I was the one assigned to take care of you.I remember when I was about to go and I kissed you on your forehead,then I said "I love you" and you said "I loveyou too..."Then i saw tears at the corner of your eyes.Unlike tatay,who says "I love you" all the time...You never said " I love you" to us,but that time,you said it,..And I was so happy.That was a rare moment,and that I will never ever forget...

But I had to go that night,by rotation,I had to go home and fix my things for it would be ate Pinky who will take charge.I know I shouldn't be mentioning this anymore,but sometimes i feel that even if I did everything,I wish I could have done better,I wish I could have done the best...

I regret that I got tired during those times,juggling from watching over you and going to my duty.

I regret not staying everyday for the remaining days of your life.

Sometimes I think where will I ever meet you?Will it be in my dreams...Is there such a thing as a crossroad...

It puzzles me...

Still...

Xoxo

Vienna,Austria

Today is the third day of our Europe trip...I was just so amazed by the European culture.It was my long time dream to travel to this continent.And i am so priveleged to be sitting right here,in a park near the museum to witness how magnificent European architecture is.

First two days was as amazing as this day too.We enjoyed the laid back life in Munich,walking non-stop and enjoying each oand every street of Munich.Germany is such an amazing multi cultural destiny that everyone,especially travellers would enjoy.

We rode the second class train trip going here from Munich ,not as bad,not smelly as I was expecting.We slept well and reached Vienna at around 5:45 AM.

Here are some glimpse of our Vienna trip,taken from my ipad.

Europe Diaries

May 23,2014

My first travel in Europe,Hon and I decided for it and dropped the Ukraine plan because of the "still" ongoing civil war in Kiev.

We had a connecting flight via Pegasus Airlines,and we had a layover here in Istanbul.Few minutes later,we will be bound to Munich.

Am I excited?

I am :-)

 A sneak peak of our photo here in Istanbul.

Vacation,soon...drumroll pls...

It was a fast-phased life here in Dubai that I did not even notice that it was already my first year working in Welcare Hospital.Of course I have nothing on my mind and my heart but be thankful for every single day that has transpired and what has brought me here,particularly to be a self-made individual.

As I look back,I had too many crying moments.But that was nothing compared to the new beginnings that I had...I had an encounter with so many blessings that at this very moment,I am still in awe.

Life has a lot of ways to offer you great things...

And the next blog will be hon and I's adventure to Europe.

Til my next blog.

Xoxo

Dinner at the rainforest cafe(after watching captain america)

We watched Captain America and Chris Evans is still as handsome as ever,but he in a bit matured with his facial features.

The movie was cool...And that after,we ended up having dinner at the Fainforest Cafe which made me feel the sense of fun and I felt like being a kid again.The cafe has this interval of every 30 minutes,they will showacase a monkey stuff toy with the sound of the jungle as the background.

We ate too much at the moviehouse but hon and I wanted a decent meal for dinner ,we did not  eat rice and we just ordered something unusual because we both cannot skip rice for dinner,hehe(this was the first time with no rice).The funny thing was I only ordered red velvet cake and chicken wings which hon commented that it seems like a "pulutan" asking for tanduay.lol!

Til our next blog.xoxo

Testing the balikbayan box

So I was off but my off turned out to be the day for me to finish my box that has to be sent to the Philippines.I was told by Faith that whenever she would send a box to her hometown,she would test if the box is really durable,so she will sit on top of the box...And so I did it it...^_^

Til our next blog.Xoxo

Vitamin D Replenishment

So it is said that if a person lacks the sufficient amount of Vitamin D,body weakness,weak bones,and several complications might occur.And as I have also encountered from patients here in the UAE,majority of them have Vitamin D deficiency.Cases may be due to several reasons,but can be attributed to the fact that most people here lack the supply of the sun's ray because people just stay at home due to the hot climate,and they prefer the convenience of having the aircon on.

So this was the intro,that's why hon and I decided to have a beach visit.And we went to Jumeirah Beach Park to invite the sun rays,oops...before 10AM.

 

I felt energized and the heat of the sun penetrated on my body which I guess lessen my cold shoulders

It was a lot of fun...

Til our next blog...

Xoxo

The boodle fight dinner

It was Faith's birthday that we were invited for a dinner,ala boodle fight.I was hearing about it a long time ago since I joined the Welcare team but wasn't really clear about how it will look like.

The resto is owned by Faith's aunt,and we really thought that it will be a yummy dinner because Faith always and with consisitency,brings yummy food and dessert at work.

She had blocked the time but since too many people were coming,we waited for a while,but let me just tell you...we enjoyed the dinner,ala boodle fight,so much that we finished eating and I did not mind that the next day,we would Ron and I will be swimming,lol!I mean,wearing swimwear...

Our very own versions of the hollywood selfie

Lighten up,lighten up,lighten up...

Who sez that only the Hollywood A listers can do the selfie...well,we also made our own version...

It was one fine duty when I would usually get my phone to check on messages.And since I use it only with my one hand,I will just place my phone on top of the table.Little did I know that Hydz got my phone and planned to do a selfie.But since I am very sensitive  to my things,I mean I already noticed that my phone was missing.I joined their about-to-be selfie.

And here is the result...

Can it pass for a Hollywood selfie?lol!

Til our next blog...

Xoxo

The spicy date of inday and dodong

It was a night that we decided to see the Dubai Downtown Lights,the light show was a big bit specially to the kids.It's like watching a movie outdoors...,and since I love seeing the Dubai Dancing Fountain.I certainly enjoyed.

We ate at Social House located in Dubai Mall,it was resto of Asian fusion,with the choice of having your tables outside so that you can have the exact view of the lights and the fountain.

Hon and I both ordered Nasi Goreng,which he told me is the counterpart of the Laureat that we have in Chowking.That was one of his favorites.So I joined him in having the laureat bandwagon.

The food was good,tasteful,really nothing bad to comment except for the veggies and greens on the side which lacks dressing.

A fun night with nothing but laughter,so much laughter that we even see people staring at us because we laugh aloud.lol!

They had a different style of door which made us both amazed and also the window backdrop which is a huge type of wooden window which we both agreed,can be a masterpiece and a conversation piece.

The food was satisfying and you will feel very full but what I liked most was the homemade iced tea which we both ordered and enjoyed.The iced tea is not the usual iced tea that we have in the market,it was a bit bland,not sweet not even sour,but has a sour cream on top which when melted,will mix with the tea and will ooze a very nice taste.Plus the mint leaves with an added bonus.

So serious...lol!

The obligatory cake for every date

The Nasi Goreng.

The homemade iced tea.

We went home so full and of course,you cannot fathom the smile accompanied by our well-spent light and fountain show date.

Til our next blog.

Xoxo