I had first my interest in blogging wayback friendster days,but to tell you honestly,I do this thing not to brag,to show off or even be a guru.Just that,this became my therapy,and I would always say that I am,"I think"is more of a writer than a talker.
Such a "girl thing" to many,that we had our periods that we share our sentiments writing on our diaries
( I am guilty).Blogging now is a form of a release of tension,an outlet...a thing where you can be your own,no sugarcoats,or barricades.Just you and you alone, and you believe that you are very good at what you are writing.
For a while,I had blogs about superficial things.Shopping,food even nonsense things.But now I realized that as we grow older,you will have a sense of purpose on what you have to write about,even if people read it or not.In the end,you have to keep up with a good purpose and be a responsible blogger.
That is when I decided to blog about other people.
Baby Sarah,Felle's baby,My inaanak
Baby Sarah's mom is a long time friend.She used to be my intern from the hospital that I was previously employed.We had our duties together,and we initially clicked.We talked about life,and because we had a little age difference,we would also talk about guys,interns whom she told me has a crush on me and her co-interns whom I knew also has a crush on her.
Their batch was one of my favorites,they are happy,funny and sweet.Their internship went so fast that eventually,we had to part ways.She graduated,was employed,had to enter Med School.And the rest is history.
Communication was constant,the heartaches,the heartbreaks that we both shared from the past were mutually updated.And we both believed that these heartaches molded us into strong individuals.
Then during the time that she had opened her clinic in Fairview,QC,that was the time that I decided to go to Dubai.Which,by coincidence,she told me also that she has a sister working there as a nurse .We both hugged tight during our last day of being together,and promised that we will still communicate.
My friendship with Felle was deep,she was one of the few persons whom I can talk about the ins and outs of me without thinking of being judged.She is a very inspiring person.She loves God.She inspires me even until now.
When I knew that she's getting married,I felt like a big sister who wants to come home and witness her special day.I knew from her stories,that she would be marrying a good and kindhearted man.And as an older sister,was so proud that she will be tying the knot,having the man that she prayed for.
Everything went so fast that I was doubly happy when she told me that she is pregnant and I will be one of her baby's ninangs.
Life is not only about chocolates,life gives you lemonades
I found out that Felle's baby was sick,Baby Sarah has a heart ailment that has to be fixed,and she has to undergo an operation.I cried when I knew that,I just can't imagine a baby,just a month old,being in
an open heart surgery.But I know that all of what I felt that time was way too little compared to what Felle was feeling.I can feel that her heart was being crushed.
I never saw Baby Sarah.I can only see her in pictures.But I was really struck by her,I don't know why...When I look in her eyes from the picture,I can see that she is still holding on and fighting.She has expressive eyes,very innocent,very child-like.
An answered prayer
When i found out about Baby Sarah's condition,I sent messages to my closest friends right away to include her on their prayers because as Christians and as a believer,we have to be prayer warriors.We have to pray for each other,and pray for one another.They have started it,and then one night I received a message from Ate Lai saying "Juds,I am praying for baby Sarah,and in case they also need money,hintay ko lang yung pera from my previous work,then give ako."
Redirected "me"
I was honestly moved by ate's message,because it was not really my intention to ask for money,because I think,as for me,prayer is better than anything that we could offer to baby Sarah.But then something inside me was bothered."Bakit nga ba hindi?"?If we wanted to help,then at least maximize the means of helping.
Doubtful "me"
I had doubts,I admit,that what if people will misunderstood and what if they will not believe."Who is baby Sarah?".They might ask,and then I will explain,and still they will not believe.It was a very sinful thinking.But God gave me an answer.
Another angel from Canada
Little did I know that another friend Sam was starting a fundraising project for Baby Sarah which answered my longing on how can I extremely help.
The project was being ignored at first,and Sam and I were talking about it,how come nobody was replying to our message.But then we made up to one decision to still hold on to our belief,they may or may not help.They may have doubts on how our intentions may be,but as long as our intentions are pure,there is nothing wrong about it.
A Message From Heaven---devil's advocate,you can never win
I want to confess and I can honestly say,I was wrong that I also doubted if people would respond.I knew that it was the devil's advocate working for us to denounce our faith,and decline the purpose in helping baby Sarah.But the enemies did not succeed.That same night,I received 2 important messages from a friend here in UAE and also from the US.They both immediately pledged a specific amount,which was overwhelming and asked me on how can they send the money.
Here are the first two people who have responded.
The list went on,some have sent their donations directly to the gofund account.Some even were problematic on how they can help.People I believe are good natured.We just have to have faith... and good people will go out of their way to help.
Donations are still on-going.
Angels in the outfield
I believe that our earth is surrounded by good and bad spirits.And I also believe that majority of it is occupied by angels.I will tell you soon about my story on angels,angels on earth and angels in disguise.
Update
Just earlier.I have met up with Felle's sister because they have made a cute pouch with baby Sarah's face on it to be considered as a donation envelope,a donor can put any amount as long as it is from the heart.
Cry baby
Boodz and I had a talk and asked her how Felle is dealing about it.She told me that Felle always cry.Lacks sleep,and she lives and is allowed to live in the hospital to be with baby Sarah,and as she was telling it,I can't help but cry.How on earth can you imagine your child,living in the hospital.It is so heartbreaking,devastating.
She told me that Felle stopped running her clinic as she would want to concentrate in taking care of baby Sarah first.
A story of HOPE(baby Sarah's smile)
In the middle of our conversation,one good thing made me smile.Boodz told me that when she took an emergency leave to the Philippines to be with her sister Felle,she saw how cute her niece is.That she saw what a fighter this little angel is,and the best thing about it...baby Sarah can still manage to smile even if she has a tube in her mouth.
It is God and only God
We ended our conversation in a very hopeful manner,we both believed that baby Sarah will get through this.That faith in God is incomparable.And that faith can create miracles.
Lesson learned?
I learned that everyday of our life is a miracle.So we must not waste the time that each of us have.In all aspects,everything can be taken away from us in a snap.
So to those who are still willing to help.A cafe latte,or a new bag,or lipstick is expensive,but a child's life is more worthy of your penny.
Til our next blog.
Xoxo